26.4.10
once again, its the end of another week!
SOT tmr! (no more morning PM lol)
i really hope tmr will be a good session in SOT
i feel i need more of His anointing..
anyway the weekend has been quite okay..
besides the cockup with the sound ministry IC =/
i've decided to honor my word since i couldn't get through to him
to serve on sunday this week since he scheduled me..
turn out to be good :) actually it's really good to serve.
and i love to serve God in little ways like this..
had 3:16 prac yesterday. it was dope :)
chun choreo-ed a v fun routine
with her sha ji screams once in a while hahahahaha
but i think it's good
i think i need to practice in private more..
cause my attitude and sharpness still not there leh..
God help me..!!!
stepping it up!!
cg was good! i felt the presence of God
but for some reason i couldn't draw in His spirit into my heart..
i think people need to learn that worship is not about the song, singing, guitar or even the aircon
if we have that, its a BONUS!
but without that? it really comes down to the heart
and really.. even if the guitar strings break.
then i was wondering how come EVERYONE was looking at the guitar with WIDE eyes =/
sigh.. when will people get that DNA...
anyway, its really good to see that she has moved on
and that our relationship is back to good frens :)
p/s i really should discipline myself in some areas.. jiayou mars! keep on keeping on :)
4/26/2010 12:34:00 AM; MUSIClover, KNOWitY
24.4.10
lol. this post will be about what God spoke to me throughout this week
about having a new heart. its a short message.
i felt the need to post it up as temptations started to flood my heart again.
hopefully someone reads it, and be blessed.
or i can use this to prepare to help those who is going through what i have gone through
have you ever felt so condemned that you always succumb to sin?
like no matter how much you prayed, read the bible, fasted, had demons casted out etc etc
but a while later, you slipped back into sin.
the bible says,
Matthew 26:41 (New King James Version)
41 Watch and pray, lest you enter into temptation. The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.”
Our fleshly, carnal nature is weak, such that if we allow our mind to follow it, there is no way we can flee from temptation.
but our spirit man is the one always crying out and resisting.
we got to make the choice to follow the spirit man.
Jesus died on the cross to save us from:
1) penalty of sin (which is death)
2) power of sin (temptation)
3) presence of sin (evil itself)
how are we saved from the power of sin which is our temptations?
by the crucifixion of our old sinful nature (old man) and putting on our spirit man (new man)
Colossians 3:9-10 (New King James Version)
9 Do not lie to one another, since you have put off the old man with his deeds, 10 and have put on the new man who is renewed in knowledge according to the image of Him who created him.
Ephesians 4:23-25 (New King James Version)
23 and be renewed in the spirit of your mind, 24 and that you put on the new man which was created according to God, in true righteousness and holiness.
we heard this ALOT ALOT of times before!
but what does it mean to put on the new man?
just like what the verse in Ephesians said - be renewed in the spirit of your mind!
which is our heart!
Romans 10:10 (New King James Version)
10 For with the heart one believes unto righteousness, and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation.
Ezekiel 18:31 (New King James Version)
31 Cast away from you all the transgressions which you have committed, and get yourselves a new heart and a new spirit. For why should you die, O house of Israel?
and throughout the bible, God has been telling that He will give us new heart!
Ezekiel 11:19-20 (New King James Version)
19 Then I will give them one heart, and I will put a new spirit within them, and take the stony heart out of their flesh, and give them a heart of flesh,
20 that they may walk in My statutes and keep My judgments and do them; and they shall be My people, and I will be their God.
Ezekiel 36:26-27 (New King James Version)
26 I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit within you; I will take the heart of stone out of your flesh and give you a heart of flesh.
27 I will put My Spirit within you and cause you to walk in My statutes, and you will keep My judgments and do them.
then it struck me, a new heart, a new man, a new spirit.
being saved was also to mean to die on the cross.
and being resurrected in Christ.
a new life.. a new beginning..
i've detested my past sins so much, how could i allow myself to sin once again?
God gave me another chance to be pure.
why would i want to cause myself to go through all those crap again?
and furthermore, to sin blatantly and knowingly is not repentance!
in fact, doing so might even cause your salvation to be nullified!
i'm just vomiting stuff out.. cause temptations hit me once again.. i will stand strong for You!
4/24/2010 11:28:00 PM; MUSIClover, KNOWitY
21.4.10
lol. i love God. like totally totally
His grace and strength never seems to amaze me
slept at 3am. woke at 5.20am
now i know how mel feels
and i know she doesn't rely on her own strength
i used to think that i can never be like her,
as though she is some superwoman.
but how wrong. cause God is the Superman
He is our superhero who will save us in times of need
who already saved us. and will continuously show us His salvation
anw thank God for min for keeping me awake today :)
i realised or rather reminded when God speaks a RHEMA to you
He will repeat the RHEMA and confirm it
like when God told me about giving me a new heart
He continued to speak to me about giving me a new heart
in the past few days, through different people
and even when God gives us a RHEMA, or maybe to us it seems like a LOGOS at that time
you never know how to it will bless people when you share it.
we are all called to edify and strengthen one another
and when we do so, when we water the lives of others, God will shower over us blessings and He will be the one who waters us :)
haha was reminded of my birthday..
honestly, i gave up having birthday wishes
cause it never happened for me
i told mel, i don't really even want to celebrate
birthdays were important to me before
but no longer..
if u ask me to have a birthday party now after so many years.
i would say no thanks.
unless u're gonna pay everything and do everything for me
LOL okay i'm financially tight now.
so i can't splurge on a party
but i'm not lazy okay.. i'll do for you if u want me to :)
just that i wun do it for myself..
4/21/2010 11:14:00 PM; MUSIClover, KNOWitY
19.4.10
woke up at 4.30am today!
wouldn't have been so tired if i didnt sleep at 1am
haha! but it was worth it!
SDD was so awesome yesterday!
think maybe i've watched too much freestyle dance,
i didnt know what to look out for in these competitions
lol but i'm still learning!
and some of the effects they bring out as a crew is really very dope!!!
hope to be competing on stage some day :)
anyway, back to today.
took the second train from YCK at 5.25am
my goodness, my brain felt so squeezed and strained that i couldn't sleep even though my eyes refuse to open.
but i reached super early! about 6.23am?
but pastor is in the next level already. HAHA he reached at 6.10am
i think the prayer meeting was good!
when you are so tired and weary, you can't rely on anything except His grace and strength.
that's when you draw close to Him
that's when He can speak to you
pastor preached about the Book of Romans
though i kept dozing off, i think it was a really good message
i really like theology and history and stuff like that, i think they are very interesting.
but i think even if it is pastor ming today i'll fall asleep.
but God is good! presence of God was so strong in the second session.
fell on my knees again and He spoke to me.
new heart, new beginning, new life.
after that, no more sleepiness. but drunk in the Spirit. HAHA
anyway, went to DIY dye my hair again.
haha it's brighter now.
and my tenant was so nice to cut for me.
i think its nice. haha will see tmr :) second day of prayer meeting!
meeting guohao tmr! pray that it will be a good time of fellowship and catching up :)
4/19/2010 06:07:00 PM; MUSIClover, KNOWitY
18.4.10
lol dots. woke up at 5am again.
maybe its like what ana said,
God is training me for next's week PM lol
had discipleship class with mel yesterday
i wonder how many times must i be reminded to be an armorbearer
it's like every time i'm remind, i run on for a while
and i fall and just stayed there. back to comfort zone.
again, like what john bevere preached.
satan will always try to get you offended.
and when u dun get submitted to ur leader,
when you not joined ur leader's vision
the flow of anointing gets cut off
i think bennie really preached at short yet v powerful sermon.
though i think i only caught on one thing:
"don't despise the little things and the small beginnings that you're in now.
instead be faithful in them so God can make you faithful in much"
read min min's blog just now..
i think what she said is true.
some things will just stay as what they are at, no more than that
i shouldn't even be dwelling on them now.
wake up!
going off to service now!
heard that they will be talking about forgiveness.
and that there will be deliverance session.
the word of forgiveness has been coming to me again and again...
problem was i never knew that i had not forgiven.
i think i'll be the first to be delivered.
i thought i had forgiven and the hurt was gone.
yet it had been just hiding behind all the stuff i used to cover it up
and it surfaced up when i was talking about it..
God, heal me today. touch me afresh :)
love you, my Daddy God
4/18/2010 07:04:00 AM; MUSIClover, KNOWitY
14.4.10
lol :) blogging again! it's like 2 yrs plus? doubt anyone will find out HAHA
since they probably gave up on me.
Went through army.
Went through a whole relationship.
It's like a whole new world and a growing up marvin
Used to be so laid back in doing stuff
Been in SOT for the past one month.
my life has seriously been changed.
and my walk with God is better than ever before...
haha anyway, today was supposed to be mock cg for the SOT students
but those not involved get to take the day off :)
so i was listening to the song alicia lim sent me
單單歸於祢 (DI SETIAP NAFASKU)
我親愛救主
向祢獻上我的全部
一生跟隨我主
我生命祢緊緊握住
我全人全心
單單歸於祢
求充滿我靈
高聲敬拜祢
我王我的救主
我神我的天父
在我生命中每一天
向祢不住獻上讚美
將我所有一切
全擺在祢面前
在我生命中每一天
我要緊緊跟隨
直到永遠
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I was so in love with the song that i decided to make an english version outta it
with some help from alicia :)
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My beloved Savior
I place my all into Your hands
Follow You till the end
You hold my life within Your hands
And with all I am,
I belong to you
Come and fill me now
As I praise Your name
You are my Savior King
You are my Father God
And every day I want to live
To honor You with all my praise
So I lay down my life
A living sacrifice
And every moment of my life
I'll follow in all Your ways
Forever more
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lol. shall change my blog skin soon... when i manage to get my bones to move haha
whoo!
4/14/2010 02:45:00 PM; MUSIClover, KNOWitY
